Today Brad would be 46. We will celebrate his life today. And how grateful we are that we got to share it with him. Some days are harder than others… some we know will be hard, and some catch us off guard and knock us off our feet. My hope for today is that it …
This quote comes from one of my most favorite and comforting scriptures ever. Isaiah 61 – This little painting is one of my new favorites. I’m keeping her. She’s going in my room. Isaiah is speaking about some of the things Christ will do. “he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim …
Love Always Wins {my widow anthem} Something in her eyes told you she had known unimaginable loss… but those eyes also told you she has known unimaginable love. Overwhelmingly beautiful, empowering love. and love is bigger than loss. LOVE Always WINS. always I wrote these words sometime in the first year after Brad died. …
Join us May 1st for Operation Serve To Heal May 1st will mark 7 years since losing Brad. Last year we added some small acts of service to what we normally do on this day {you can read more about that here}We found that something special happened when we focused on serving others instead of focusing on …
On It’s Own Today marks 5 1/2 years since Brad’s death. It’s interesting how the passage of time changes things. {and how it doesn’t} I remember having a physical “flinch” on every 1st of every month. Another month without Brad. I was always counting. Hours, days, months. Sometimes it’s hard to believe that I’m counting …
So it’s safe to say that Valentines day is no longer one of my favorite holidays. to be honest, it pretty much blows now. And each year it is a hard day and it seems like I miss Brad more on that day than others….(didn’t think that was possible, but I guess it is.) so …
A few weeks ago I had the privilege of attending an AWP event. AWP stands for the American Widow Project. A charity started by a military widow when she lost her husband at age 21. I stumbled across the AWP website about a year after I lost Brad. I remember clearly the night I found …
Widow. When I realized that at age 33, that title applied to me – it made me physically sick. I completely rejected that word and everything that it stood for. I never refer to myself as a widow. (it’s ironic that my blog has this word in the title. – really I’ve always …
I have a love hate relationship with Memorial Day weekend. I love that people remember and honor Brad more than on your average day. But it’s also an emotional roller coaster weekend for me. I usually get a little pissed, missing my old memorial days spent with my sweet husband. I’m usually grateful, a …
Yesterday marks the four year anniversary of Brad’s death. I have felt this day creeping up. It stresses me out. I don’t really despise or hate this day. Some people may find that interesting. The only reason for that is because I feel that Brad is closer on May 1st. (and that’s saying something, because …